Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Ambitions

Hello again.

Well, first off let me say that this may be a bit hard to follow. Oh wait, wanderings of an a.d.d. mind, never mind.

Have you ever had one of those days where you wake up and feel like you are going to finally get things done that you know darn well you probably cannot? I mean, you wake up, and for that split second you wander off into some mental retreat where time, problems, and life just don't seem to exist (much less get in your way). Sometimes those very thoughts are enough to get us up and moving with some hidden sub-conscious delusion that we are going to be that much more productive today. And, if you are anything like I am, those ambitions will either fade sometime during the day and leave you with an empty feeling of in-accomplishment, or, still be lingering in the back of your head as you sit lazily on your couch watching the next episode of whatever show it is this season on TV. Either way, nothing has been done but yet somehow you feel bad that it didn't even though you really didn't plan on it anyway.

I did get some response to my first blog and wanted to personally thank those who took the time to read it and even more to those who let me know they read it. Even though I did not start this as a means of adoration or praise, it's nice to hear and see so thanks again (you know who you are).

I don't know if this week can feel any more weird than it already has. It's only Wednesday and already I feel like tomorrow should be Friday or sometimes Tuesday. I think it's with everything holiday related that is throwing me off. You too? I hope so 'cuz man, this is not cool.

I've had a pretty interesting week so far too. Sunday, I was so elated when I was able to watch the final minutes of my football team win. Go Steelers by the way. Yet, I found myself just moments before that so darn pissed off and bored that I actually thought of all the ambitious things I could be doing or simply just taking a nap! The blame for that lies solely on wfrv channel 5 and fox 11. Let me explain. So being in N.E. WI, we are always going to be able to watch a Packer game and understandably so. However, when the game is a flat out, blow out, snooze fest and you refuse to switch over to another game on another fox network affiliate, well, that really stinks. Packer fans even have to admit a little that they were getting a bit bored of that game. Come on, don't hide it, unless you were actually @ the game, it was pretty boring. And then, and then, as if that wasn't enough, wfrv channel 5 didn't even have a football game on! They decided to just show infomercials and paid programming! Arrghh, so what do you do, the one day a week that is set aside for football for 17 weeks and we only get to watch 1 stinking blowout game?! Guess who is going to dig deep into his pockets for next season and have NFL Sunday ticket? Yeah, I will take donations now and you can come over and watch too. I just can't take the small market crap anymore. There I feel better even if you don't understand or care.

Two more points and I will leave you to your lives. I have decided not to use real names on this out of respect and privacy. So, if you take the time to read this and notice a resemblance to yourself and don't like the name I used for you, ummm, to bad it's my blog, get your own.

I would like to take this time to thank the Queen for being the first one to read this last week and not bash me too hard. In fact, I think deep down the queen may have even enjoyed it. Thanks to the Boss for helping me in the garage last night. The work is not done, but i appreciate your help anyway. Mrs. Jack, I hope you get a chance to read this as you seem to be the only one who asked if I was going to do this again, thanks. And lastly to the one who told me to do this in the first place, Big Eddie, thanks, I don't know that it is helping me the way you said it would, but it's kinda fun anyway. And to all of you who were not mentioned, thanks for reading it. I sure hope these get easier and more organized.

Have a safe and joyous New Year everyone and take care, see you next year!

Love and Peace.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Let's Give this a Shot!

Merry Christmas, albeit a day late and a dollar short as old adage goes.

I find myself doing this for no further reason than to simply put down random thoughts, ideas, and from time to time just get things off my chest.

I will not say to anyone who reads this or knows me that you will at all times be graced, mentioned, or even simply spoken of in the most positive light. I will simply say that the truth as I see it or randomize it will be posted and if you are uncomfortable with it, darn it, start your own blog and let me have it in rebuttal. On the other hand, if you do in fact know me or my personality, you will fully understand most of these thoughts, good and bad. You will also be man or woman enough to know when I am simply venting or if I really do have a true gripe to you that needs to be addressed.

With that said, hello. This is going to be fun I can see it already.

Today, December 26th, 2009. The year is almost over and there are again so many things that I wanted to get done this year. As in many years past, I have failed myself again. 2010, Hi, My name is Dean, do you think we can maybe get somethings accomplished together? Let's finish that project, start that one we have been putting off, land on our feet more often, get back up and stop freaking whining about it, learn something new that will actually help? I hope so, welcome 2010, and to steal a line from Home Depot, Let's Build something Together!

Not sure where to take this next. As stated in the title, this is a wandering of and a.d.d. mind. I find myself sitting here with Pandora playing, hopefully quietly enough as not to disturb anyone else in the house who may be sleeping or reading. As the new song starts I can't help but wonder why I picked this station. I am really not in the mood for Michael Buble` right now. Ah, Pearl Jam Radio, now that's the stuff. Which reminds me, I really should update my iPod since I am down here and thinking of it.

So, a reflection on yesterday for a moment. I want to start by stating that it was a great day, Christmas seems to always be the only time we can actually get the entire family together for a few hours each year. Well, the only real time that we want to be together. A.d.d. moment, r.i.p. to all those we have lost this year! You will not be forgotten no matter how busy our lives get or how it may seem that we have. Ok where was I? So yesterday we all sat down together as a family, ate, drank, and caught up on things for the year. Some of us seemed to want to be there more than others, some of us didn't show up at all (but should have), and some of us wished it could have just been frozen in time and perfected for future use. Whatever your thoughts are on Christmas, it doesn't much matter to me, I see it as a time to get together and just relax from the 360+ days of busy hustle and bussle everyday life. Thank you for all gifts, thoughts, ideas, and conversations.

I think I have said enough here for now, as I find myself having so many ideas right now that I fear I could make this go on all night. That wouldn't be good for you or me. Have a great night world, I think we will be talking again soon.

Love and Peace!