Cha Cha Cha Changes.....?

Not sure where this needs to start. Most of you who know me know how hard this is going to be. Got a big pill to swallow so hold up here, it's gonna start off slow.

Situations, times, and events. These things all seem to be needed to make us who we are and why we do what we do. Good, bad or indifferent things must happen. The reasons may be unknown, they may have a purpose or intent, but i venture to say most of us don't have a clue.

6 months. Seems like a long time right. To some it can be. To others it can be just repetition, perpetual motion of sorts I guess you could say. Well, for me, i tend to waiver on the brink of both sides of this denomination.

The number 6 is big here for a few reasons. It is the amount of time it can take to produce a great lager. It is more time than we typically get for nice weather. It's also about the amount of time it takes to completely turn a person or relationship.

Now, I can tell you of the latter by means of personal experience. Allow me to explain. 6 months ago, i had a conversation that i really didn't want to have. In fact, i did what I could at the time to stop it; didn't work, now here i am writing about it. I didn't particularly care for this conversation nor did i care at the time for what happened afterwards. But, with time, i learned to understand that with a simple conversation your life, surroundings, events, and future can change. Without choice.

The things in our lives that make us are our events, actions, surroundings and perspectives. Remember that, it's a pretty big lesson; the sooner you learn it, the better everyone around you will be (yourself included). At this time I would just like to add that if you ever get the chance, apologize, take the time to say your sorry. You never know when it will be too late. Small word, seems about as useful these days as "please" and "thank you". Where did our values of simplicity and kindness go?

A.D.D. moment here - Today i had the opportunity to express what I just said. I was returning from a walk across the parking lot at work today. Heard a Cardinal (My mothers favorite bird so I know the sound automatically) and thus started looking into the tree across from me to find it. At this time so was a short elderly lady who was also going into the building. We both stopped in our tracks and looked deep into the maple tree to find this bird. "I found it" i exclaimed to her. She walked (slowly) to me. I pointed - there it is. Just as i did, away it flew. Still making that distinct sound. It never did leave the tree, but rather chose to play hide and seek. The bird did this three times to us. Alas, she saw it, paused in awe, and started talking to me about how she use to have Cocteau birds. We walked towards the building, slowly, and talked the whole time like we had been friends for years. I held the door open for her, she said thank you very much. I helped her find where she was going for an appointment. I think I may have made her afternoon. I know she helped me have a better one. Thank you.

Anyway, i guess you could say that the things of our past really do dictate our futures. Even if we don't know it or realize it at the time. Things we say, actions we take, even the silence we have the right to use can all play a vital roll.

The point I am trying to make here is sorry says a lot. But timing is everything. It's kind of like when your buddy is having a party and he forgets to invite you but mentions it over and over. Still no invite. You certainly aren't going to invite yourself or ask for an invitation. Timing is everything, like when your buddy tells you a joke. You have that split second to have the perfect response, comeback or just right laugh. With that said, the previous mentioned 6 months have been about timing. Sitting. Waiting. Wondering. Then eventually that moment passes, the timing is lost. You wonder why the invite never came, why you didn't just laugh when the joke was first told. Why? Because - The events, actions and surroundings of our daily lives make us who we are.

Sorry. Don't be so afraid to use it; it may be just what someone needs to hear even if you can't understand. It may not be the event, surrounding or situation you were meant to understand. But your time will come, then you will realize just what this was all about.

I've done my part.......